On January 23rd, I woke up to my water breaking around 7 am. I couldn't believe what was happening. In fact I didn't believe it. I got up and called labor and delivery and they told me to come in if I kept leaking water. Well, I sure did. It doesn't stop coming after it breaks! I was 13 days early and wasn't expecting it. I had hoped but, didn't think it would happen. Since I was growing a very large baby the doctors advised me to have a C-section. As soon as we got to the hospital I sat down in the wheel chair I started bawling my eyes out. I was terrified of everything. Surgery wasn't something I had experienced before. We waited for about 2 hours for the doctor to be ready to operate and the entire time I was very nervous and emotional. They wheeled me down to the operating room and it was like I was in a movie laying there looking up at all the doctors and nurses in their masks looking over me. Troy had to wait outside as they prepped me and that's the first time I saw a bit of fear in his face. They handed him this suit and said put this on and we will come get you. I could tell he was nervous as he kissed me and they wheeled me away. They moved me from a huge hospital bed to this tiny operating table, I was afraid I was going to fall off. It was freezing in the operating room I was shivering as they stuck the needle in my back to numb me. It happened quickly and before I knew it they had laid me back and starting to cut me open. Troy walked in a few seconds after the initial incision and was right by my side. He made the mistake of looking over the sheet and I watched his face as he stood up and it was pure terror. He turned white as a ghost and sat back down. I thought he was going to pass out. He had seen them pulling her by her head out of me. He told me that later and I doubt he will ever do that again. It took two minutes from the time they cut me open to the time she came out. Scout Joyce Miller was born at 12:34 pm. She was 10 pounds 14 ounces and 20.5 inches long. She was huge a baby with lots of black hair. I was expecting a blonde haired blue eyed Gerber baby. Honestly, she looked Chinese because, she was so swollen and puffy. I called her my sumo baby for at least two weeks until the swelling went down. The rest of that day was a blur of vomiting and napping. After getting some rest I was finally able to bond with my baby. People had told me you won’t know what love is until you have a child. I never believed that until now. There is no love like this. I have never been so connected to anyone. She is my everything and I couldn't be happier. We were in the hospital for quite some time regulating both or our blood sugars. I have type 1 diabetes and I sure that is why she is such big baby. Both of our bodies had to adjust to being apart. She had been producing extra insulin to help me out so her sugar levels were extremely low for the first 24 hours. The nurses were wonderful and we were so pleased with our hospital stay. After we got home we moved our guest bed to the main floor since I couldn't walk up the stairs. The next 2 weeks were amazing. It was me Troy and Scout in our own bubble. Learning and adjusting to being parents. I was in a lot of pain from the C-section but, it was all worth it and I would do it all over in a heartbeat.